Monday, August 30, 2010

a few ramblings...

If I asked why
would you have an answer?
I don't think you would
searching for secrets underground
smiles ride the wind
nightmares cling to memories
dreams escape with wings
if you could hold me
i would let you

Friday, August 27, 2010

sometimes...

you wish you could understand people :)
and sometimes...maybe it's best you didn't.
I think it is what makes life interesting..
or at the very least..never boring.
I saw this :
Some people let go easy
Some people are easy to let go of
Sometimes it's easier to let go
then be the one left behind


I had to wonder what the person was thinking when they wrote it. Lots of ways to go with that. Lost love? Broken friendship? The passing of a loved family member? There are definitely people I apply those few sentences too, but thankfully not many :)
God has richly blessed me with real friends and a steadfast family...so for those that come and go...I am secure in those that come and and decide to never go.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Photo (s) of the Week (s) :)

Seriously - one of the best colors in a sunset I have ever seen. It was even taken on my lil point and shoot camera... beeeeautiful!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Today was a good day...

If you breathed in and out
you let a good memory invade your thoughts
you tasted food
or your favorite drink quenched your thirst.

Today was a good day
if you smiled
or if you cried
emotions are priceless

Today was a good day
if you could name at least one person that loves you
you could name one person you love
or you simply have known love

Today was a good day
if one foot could be put in front of the other
you turned your face toward the sunshine
your skin felt cool in a breeze

Today was a good day
if you swatted away an annoying bug
put your barefeet in the grass
or had a bbq with your family

Today was a good day
if you got to work
stressed over your tasks
and still managed to cross off a few "to-do's"

Today was good day
if you could wake up
find your way through another day
and fall asleep tonight.

Only because, I did those things today...and though none of them are seemingly a big deal...I know someone dear to my heart who could not.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Would you like some water?

It was a simple question, but it hit me. One of my closest friends from college met tragedy face to face last week. It happened so fast, one minute we were 14 hours apart and the next we were in the halls outside the ICU nearing midnight in Albany, NY. Stranger things have happened, but wow. The story is on Facebook under Praying For Graham if you are a facebooker.
However, it was night #2 as she sat in the halls wondering why her brother had to suffer a traumatic brain injury in an accident. It was all very eerie for me, hearing the same diagnosis as my brother had when he was hurt a few years ago. The shock in her face was still unsettled as the events wreaked havoc with her emotions.
However, while we sat there together (the halls felt uncommonly dark) an elderly gentleman needed a seat. Her husband sat next to me and moved our bags off the seat and we all smiled. Nice right? Complacent actually. My friend stood up and looked over at the man..."Do you need a drink of water?" he shook his head and said thank you. "Are you sure?" She continued. "Do you need anything, I would get it for you?"
Though the man didn't take her up on her offer, her ability to think outside of her own circumstances was unbelievable to me. I remember barely hanging on to sanity when it my brother, but in the simplest of fashions, she made sure the elderly man in the halls with us was ok.
The whole idea goes with her brother's song "People Matter" which is out on his CD. Get it, it's good :)
It was a simple question, but to the man in the hall it was gesture of real kindness. For my friend, it spoke volumes about her...she wasn't too wrapped up in her own nightmare to see a need in another human being. I am thinking, I noticed that for a reason.

Monday, August 9, 2010

What Not To Say...

Ya know the book ... Eat This Not That. If it hasn't already been written...I may have to venture to write a "Say This, Not That" series.
In times of crisis it IS hard to know what to say when you are in the midst of someone facing the worst day of their life. Sometimes, it's nearly impossible to write something in a card or say something of comfort. If you don't know what to say...then say that. Admit it. Admit you have no words of comfort, admit you might not understand the pain they are going through, admit that even throwing out a Bible verse might not be the best thing at the moment.
Our pastor had a great sermon two weeks ago on using the verse Romans 8:28 when you are looking to comfort someone who is hurting. To sum it up...Don't use it. That's a hard concept to swallow when you are looking crisis in the face. Trust me, I had someone email it to me one time after my brother's accident...I can't begin to describe what went through me then...so. I won't. :)
I happened to purchase Ken Ham's "How Could a Loving God...." a few weeks ago and let me tell you, the timing couldn't have been better. As I have watched people I love like my own family hurt and cry this past week, so many questions come up. My faith has been challenged. This book is really wonderful, it digs deep into those questions and answers with verses other than Romans 8:28 ;) and keeps the faith rather than destroying it.
So I will have to think on my concept of "say this, not that". I think it necessary :) I know whenever tragedy hits people are moved, emotional and reach out in a desperate hope to those they know are hurting. However, its hard to filter through "good intentions" when you are the one trying to make it to another day and sometimes people's words just make it worse.
A few key ideas...don't say "I know how much this hurts." Don't say it, unless you have lived it.
"God is in control" - though I fully believe this is true- it unleashes an anger in people..because the inevitable "why" questions is on stage next...thus...the book by Ken Ham. It's an easy read, if you are Christian - this book is almost a must. It asks some tough questions about this imperfect life. God IS in control, but the answers to tragedy, to life are not summed up in a neat little package...but the within the beautiful disaster of life, we have hope, we have promises and we have the tools to navigate it all.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

It wasn't the reunion we had planned...

Anyone close to me knows this week has been tough. With the traumatic accident hurting families near and dear to me, it's been a challenge emotionally and spiritually. My best friends from college are all descending upon the beautiful city of Albany, but for a reason none of us had planned. A young man was hurt in a rodeo accident and suffered a brain injury. As he still "sleeps" it's a all too familiar feeling watching sisters, mothers, brothers, friends and a beautiful young wife try to stay together and face this huge obstacle before them.
Oddly enough, three roomies from college and best friends who haven't seen each other in years have been hugging, smiling and seeing each other again for the first time within the hallways outside of the ICU at Albany Med.
It's scary not knowing the outcome, knowing that only God has the answers and we merely have to abide in the knowledge that He has the control and not us. We have to understand that there may not be understanding right now and that the questions are enumerable. But faith binds us together, a family ravaged by a tragedy is emerging strong in the Lord and though it's not the reunion we had planned, we are all in it together. Miles have melted away this week, distance is a stranger, crisis demands attention....And together... we pray for Graham.